August 31st, 2011
Today is the last day of August and therefore the last day of my scheduled macrobiotic diet. I have discontinued consuming dairy, eggs, caffeine, alcohol and smoking for the entire month. It was a great success in the fact that I have managed to not consume any of those items for a month. However, I didn’t follow the mindfulness part of the diet. I overate and didn’t chew my food as well as I should have.
Overall, though, I would say that the diet was a success. I have felt better not drinking, smoking or consuming caffeine than I did while I consumed these items.
I have no plans to start smoking or drinking caffeine tomorrow or any time in the future. I am, however, undecided about drinking. I am thinking that I might try drinking this weekend when I am at my grandfather’s 80th birthday party and see how that makes me feel. I can use that as gauge to see if I plan on drinking on a regular (weekly) basis.
However, I am concerned that if I start drinking again I will go back into my old habits of binge-drinking nearly every weekend. I’m not sure that I know how to control my drinking. It is one thing to have one drink with dinner and stop. It’s another for me to be out at the bars and have only one drink. And once I have that second drink I tend to stop caring if I get drunk and just keep drinking. It seems “fun” and let’s me have “fun” in a situation where I’m really not enjoying myself. Drinking to excess, like overeating, is just another way for me to run away from the fact that I’m not being fulfilled by my life.